Wall update.

Check it outttttttttttttttttttt.

The quote in the middle of the four photos on the right says "Make each day your masterpiece."

Love.

Faaaaaailure.

Tonight failed. We tried to go to the club...got all dolled up and everything. Turns out "Statik" is now "Live"...and it's 21 and up. Daaaaang.











Had a blast anyway. Lucas, Jen, Andy and I went to Perkins and ordered ridiculous amounts of food. Eric, who works there, is a total babe. Totally metro, and possibly gay. Luke and I were both very intrigued. We left our numbers on the receipt. He called me. I win :)

Mushrooms make your brain bleed, and fetuses appear in trees. Watch out.

I love you.

Just in case you forgot.

Accomplishments.

Today I cleaned up my room. It feels WONDERFUL!! I got my pictures up and everything. My wall contains:
1 "Imagine" poster. BEAUTIFUL.
3 Black wooden music notes with quotes on them.
1 Photo of Audial Sunshine.
2 Prom photos with Taylor.
1 Shadowbox of Dad
1 Quote: "The first man a girl falls in love with is her daddy."
1....you know that handprint poem you make for your parents in preschool? I have the one I made for my Dad when I was 4. It's got my little handprints on it and a picture of Dad.
1 Letter from Grandpa Reitman.
1 Present I made for Andrew that makes little sense being on my wall.
1 $3 clock from Walmart that's stuck at 3:00.
1 Dry erase board that currently reads:
"Decline Drake insurance by 9/12
Write to "Grandpa" :) "

Our room looks pretty sweet.

Time to go to choir. Hopefully whats-his-face is working at the front desk. Don't know his name. He's probably in his mid to late 20s (out of college) and is the most gorgeous speciman of human life I've ever seen. And he knows my name.

Today was vagtastic.

The end.

Oh, if only.

I got a fortune cookie today. Here's what it said:
"That special someone loves to see the light in your eyes."

I hope so.

You know how you told me you used to keep from messing around by sabotaging yourself? I think I'm doing it now. When things start to happen I find myself talking about you an abnormal amount. That tends to work. Or I'll pick something small out that bothers me about him and focus on it until it's unbearable and I lose all interest. This would all be WONDERFUL if I wasn't allowed to fool around. But I AM!!! Damn youuuuuuuuuuu.

Good news!

Got the job! I start tomorrow. Wish me luck!
Oh, and here's a survey.

Why are you single?
Wellllll it's a bit complicated. It's better off this way, for now.

Have you ever wished you had a different last name?
I actually like Wilson.

If a stranger looked in your closet, what would they think?
This is the smallest closet EVER. Fuck college dorms.

Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
We were bored of the movie we were watching.
Haha, just kidding. Well, that's totally true, but that's not why we kissed.
Don't go see "Mirrors."

What's bothering you right now?
I don't know which choir I'm in next year. I find out in like 8 hours.

Do people underestimate you?
Often.

What are you doing tomorrow?
Class, then work.

Have you ever hated someone, but ended up being friends with them?
Probably.

Did you sing at all today?
Yep. Every day of my life.

Have you ever driven drunk?
No.

Do you miss anyone?
Si.

What side of a heart do you draw first?
Left.

Would you kiss the last person you kissed?
Probably. We'll see. A lot can happen in 3 months.

Do you wear a lot of black?
Hmm. I'd say about a normal amount.

Do you have a tan?
Somewhat.

Do you like orange juice?
When I'm in the mood for it. But not usually.

Do you get emotional easily?
I wouldn't say easily. I don't get emotional about small things. But when I do get emotional, I get VERY emotional.

Which shoe goes on first?
Left.

Can you sleep without blankets covering you?
No.

How many hours of sleep do you need to function?
982039489302843298

Last trip you took to the zoo?
It's been too long.

Did you feel awkward at all today?
YES.

Last four things you drank?
Water. Water. Water. Water.

Did you wake up happy today?
NO.

Whats the first thing you did when you woke up this morning?
Brushed my teeth.

How often do you take pain medicine?
Rarely. Sometimes after the dentist.

Do you sleep with socks on?
Sometimes.

Have you ever had to go to court?
Never HAD to.

Do you like to wear lip gloss/chap stick?
Always.

How old do you look?
I look about my age, a little older maybe. I usually get 19 to 23.

Whats the last thing you ate?
Taco Bell quesadilla.

Are you waiting for something?
Goodness yes.

What were you doing at ten last night?
Watching Iron Man with Joey.

Did you cry today?
No.

Do you hate the last person you had a conversation with?
Not at all.

Is there anyone who understands your relationship status?
Single? It's not that difficult of a concept.

Last person you hugged?
Lawrence. LOVE HIM.

Did you have a dream last night?
Yes! The last four nights straight I've dreamt that Jonathan and I got back together. Each time it happens in a different strange way. This time I caught him breaking into my house because he knows my garage door code. I told him I wouldn't call the cops if he'd sit and talk to me for a bit. We decided to give things another try. Silly dream-Kathleen!

How many piercings do you have?
Six.

If you could have something right now, what would it be?
This guy I know.

Does anyone call you babe?
Don.

Have you broken a bone?
Yep. Collarbone.

Can you sleep in jeans?
I've done it before. Not comfortable.

When's the last time you told someone you loved them and meant it?
I reminded him last week.

Who was your last text from?
Andrew.

What is your favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?
Apples.

Where were you on July 4th?
Fireworks in Crystal Lake with Eldridge.

Do you prefer warm or cold weather?
Hot.

What was going through your mind during your last kiss?
3 months :(

How late did you stay up last night and why?
4. Druuuuuuunk.

What's the connection between you and the last person you texted?
Friend.

Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
Yes. Four years. Eeek.

Ever kissed anyone of opposite sex?
Ah yes.

Do you like to cuddle?
Yes.

Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now.

Close my eyes and I count to ten;
Hope it's over when I open them.

Back to Iowa tomorrow. I definitely need this.

Interview Friday at Hyvee Pharmacy. This job would be wonderful. Wish me luck.

I can fake it with the best of 'em all.

I wish I could keep fooling myself into thinking I'm alright.

I wish everything I have could be enough for you.

I need to stop thinking.
I need to stop thinking of you.
I need to stop thinking of you as my best friend.
I need to stop thinking that someday you might think it too.

My heart is broken. There is no pretending.
I don't want to hurt anymore.

I have arrived, and this time you should believe the hype.

When was the last time you felt like your heart was actually breaking?
About a month ago.

Looking forward to something this weekend?
Yes!! Tomorrow is going to be a good day. Dinner with Ryan, then the Roast of Bob Saget with my boys =]

Do you hate it when people smoke/chew around you?
I'm not terribly fond of it.

In the past week have you cried?
Once, just a little. Lots of songs remind me of Dad :/

Why are you not going for the person you want?
Oh goodness. So many reasons. Mostly because it's a waste of my time and energy?

Who told you they loved you last?
Erin <3

Is there someone you will never forget?
There are a lot of people in my life that I will never forget. Some for better reasons than others.

Where’s the guy/girl you like right now?
Far away.

Is any part of your body sore?
Haha. No.

Last thing you ate?
Fudge from Fannie May. Mmmmm.

Do you like waking up in the morning to find that you have new texts?
Yes!

Who was the last boy you laid in a bed with?
Joey.

Are you a morning person or a night person?
Night, typically.

Do you know if anyone likes you?
Yep.

Do you like someone right now?
I'm exploring different options.

How do you feel about public displays of affection?
Hmm. Well, I'm totally up for holding hands...a peck here and there is fine. No tongue, please. Nobody wants to see that.

Can you keep a secret?
Yes.

Are you open with your feelings to people?
Some people. I'm typically pretty open except for when I think I might make someone uncomfortable.

What are you thinking right now?
The song "Starfuckers, Inc." by Nine Inch Nails. The first lyrics are as follows:

"My god sits in the back of the limousine
My god comes in a wrapper of cellophane
My god pouts on the cover of the magazine
My god is a shallow little bitch trying to make a scene"

Pondering the meaning. My initial thoughts were that Reznor was literally comparing God to a celebrity, suggesting that His ways are shallow and vain. Upon further consideration, I'm now thinking the song was meant to demonstrate how society "worships" media personalities, as one would worship a god. I read up on the issue a bit, and found some sources that suggest Reznor was writing about Courtney Love, which would make the title quite literal. Most of the lyrics would make sense with this theory as well, I suppose. I like my reasoning better.

How do you feel towards the person who texted you last?
Andrew? He's alright I guess. =]

What always makes you feel better when you are upset?
Music.

Who is the last person you took a picture with?
Erin and/or Taylor.

Who was the last person to call you?
Mom. I'm so cool.

Are you smiling?
Not at the moment.

How are you right this second?
Alright. Looking forward to tomorrow.

Do you like to take walks?
Absolutely.

Will your next kiss be a mistake?
I hope not.

When was the last time you cried?
A few days ago.

Where is your biological father right now?
New York <3

What is bothering you right now?
Well, I just found out that Maynard James Keenan is in a relationship, which is totally disappointing. I don't know how to tell his girlfriend that I'm having his babies.

Have you ever made out on a boat?
I don't think so.

Does your head hurt?
Not anymore! I had a headache all day, but it JUST went away. Yay me.

Have you ever injected a drug?
Nope.

Where is your best friend/s?
Nooooo clue.

Look to your right, what is there?
A pillow.

Have any piercings or tattoos?
6 piercings. 5 in the ears, one in the nose Just took out the bellybutton one.

Do you fight with your grandparents often?
Don't have any left. Dang.

Where did you get the shirt you're wearing from?
I'm not wearing a shirt. I'm wearing a towel...just out of the shower. I have no idea where it's from.

The thing that was bothering you, is it still bothering you?
Maynard's girl? Nah, she'll get over it.

Do you know anyone with cancer?
Madre.

Have you ever hated someone, but ended up being friends with them?
Probably.

What bed did you sleep in last night?
Mine.

Has anyone ever saved your life?
Maybe.

Do you get good grades?
I did until last year :/

What are you looking forward to tomorrow?
THE ROAST!!

Did you ever go to a special learning center?
Nope

Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school?
No. But I was a Catholic school girl for Halloween junior year. Does that count?

Do you get mad or discouraged when you're wrong?
Not usually.

What was the first thing you did when you woke up?
Brushed my teeth.

Does anyone call you baby?
Not regularly.

Who did you ride in a car with last?
Mom and Kevin.

Last thing you drank?
Agua.

How was your weekend?
So far so good.

Are you happy right now?
Content.

What did you do today?
Went to the mall. Worked 3-8 in Lake Zurich. Dyed my hair. The end.

Where is your phone?
Next to me.

Do you worry a lot?
No.

Do you mind being cold?
Hate it.

Darius really knows how to compliment a girl.

Kathleen: I would be playing way better if I was wearing soccer shorts. You wanna trade and wear my jeans?
Darius: Sure, I've always wondered what it would be like to get in your pants.


"Kathleen, I was just thinking how you look so much hotter some days than others, and then I realized it's because some of your friends are so ugly."
--Darius Voss

The usual.

Pick a word that begins with the first letter of your first name?
Kangaroo.

Have you ever been in handcuffs?
Haha.

Have you ever caught anything on fire?
Marshmallows.

Are you bipolar?
I don't think so. But it's in my family, so who knows?

How long is your hair when it's wet?
Umm, a little longer than shoulder length, I suppose. It's growing very slowly.

What was the last thing you took a bite of?
A pear.

What are you wearing on your feet?
Socks.

How many times do you talk on the phone a day on average?
1 or 2 full conversations. The rest just to make plans and such.

Do you usually have weird dreams?
Sometimes. I used to have this recurring one in which my bed walked down the stairs into my laundry room and then someone shot me from outside the window. Creepy.

Do you like your bed?
Not when it walks.

How many times have you been to the ER?
Twice, I think.

Do you log on to MySpace every day?
Every few days, at most. I'm a facebooker.

Have you ever been to NYC?
Many a time.

What are you thinking about right now?
Deciding whether I should finish this survey first or go pee. Pee wins.

What color is your keyboard?
Black

Have you ever been on an airplane?
Lots of times.

Whats your stand on hunting?
I guess it's good. But I wouldn't do it.

Marriage in your future?
If I meet the right person, probably.

Are you wearing socks?
Still.

Do you like your life?
It's wonderful at the moment :)

Are you ticklish?
Sometimes.

Do you have trust issues?
Goodness yes.

Do you believe in love at first sight?
Lust. Not love.

How has this past week been for you?
All over the place.

First person under 'J' on your cell phone?
Jackie.

Do you hate that person?
Haha, no.

Any fun plans for today?
Working at 9. Argghhhhhh.

Who are you disappointed in right now?
Hmmmm. Eldridge is being a bit stand-offish. Which is okay, but a little disappointing I guess.

When was the last time something bothered you?
Earlier today. But not REALLY.

Have you ever broken someone's heart?
Yes. :/

Are you the type that would rather stay at other peoples houses or have them over?
I like to get out, but people seem to always convene at my place.

Do tattoos and piercings excite you?
I don't know if "excite" is the right word. I enjoy both.

Have you ever kissed someone and never saw them again?
Yep.

Do you know anyone whose name starts with a Z?
Not first name, that I can think of.

Do you ever dance even if there's no music playing?
I've been known to do so, yes.

When is the last time you danced?
Sadly, a week or two ago when I had folks over at my place. Jen and Erin are wonderful dancers. We should dance again soon.

Has anyone ever called you perfect before?
Today, actually :)

What song is stuck in your head?
That "fly like paper, get high like planes" song. Damn you Cameron and Eldridge...

Name something you have to do tomorrow?
WORK. Dang.

Do you smile a lot?
Almost all the time.

Who was your last missed call on your cell phone?
Ryan. But I was getting a fruit cup from downstairs, so it wasn't my fault. I called back.

You should buy me a book.

"My Horizontal Life" by Chelsea Handler.
Thanks.

It's 5am.

I just got home.
Tonight was wonderful! Had hours of much-needed intellectual conversation. SO refreshing. It'd been a while.