You'll always be a part of me.

Goodnight, my angel
Time to close your eyes
And save these questions for another day
I think I know what you've been asking me
I think you know what I've been trying to say
I promised I would never leave you
And you should always know
Wherever you may go
No matter where you are
I never will be far away

Goodnight, my angel
Now it's time to sleep
And still so many things I want to say
Remember all the songs you sang for me
When we went sailing on an emerald bay
And like a boat out on the ocean
I'm rocking you to sleep
The water's dark
And deep inside this ancient heart
You'll always be a part of me

Goodnight, my angel
Now it's time to dream
And dream how wonderful your life will be
Someday your child may cry
And if you sing this lullaby
Then in your heart
There will always be a part of me

Someday we'll all be gone
But lullabies go on and on...
They never die
That's how you
And I
Will be

--Billy Joel, "Lullaby (Goodnight, My Angel)"


I saw Juno last night, for the second time. I'd almost forgotten what an amazing film it is. Besides the obvious, Juno's relationship with her father really got to me. The anniversary of my dad's death is coming up. It will have been 5 years on February 12th. It kills me to think that he won't be around to see me have my first child. He won't be there to see me graduate college, or walk me down the aisle on my wedding day. I've decided that the life I've been living isn't one that he would've wanted for me. I'm not happy, and I'm allowing people into my life that are keeping me from happiness. I'm going to make some changes.

I don't believe in the afterlife, but it's times like these that make me hope I'm wrong. Dad, if you're out there, I love you. I'm going to make you proud.